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2010 - Best Year Ever?
I cannot believe that 2010 is almost over. It really did fly by! My life has changed so much in the past year. I like to say I have "evolved" - no I am not a meditator, karma, yoga person - but I do feel like I am a new person in a certain sense.
If I truly look back on the past few years of my life, I can say that I wasn't as happy as I let on. My life was not miserable at all, but it wasn't as fulfilling and happy as it could have been. I have always been an optimist, someone who sees the glass half full, who tries to see the best in people. Yes, I totally have my flaws - I do not have a lot of mercy, think I know everything and am a control freak (and those are just a few off the top of my head - there are many, many more). But, as I look back, I was just going through life like a zombie, it was all a routine to me. Go to work, come home, watch tv, go visit my family, hang with friends sometimes and go to church....and repeat...over and over again. I feel that life continued on and I stood still. I had become complacent in my life.
You see all of my friends had gotten married, were beginning to have families of their own and I was the single one left. Yes, they included me but I was still the odd wo-man out. Its wonderful hearing about their life, but I couldn't relate and didn't have a lot to contribute to the conversations because my life was on repeat - nothing was new with me. I cannot tell you how many times people asked, "what's new with you?" and all I could say was, "nothing - just work and church". Don't get me wrong, I was not bitter about their life, envious of it sometimes - yes, I will confess that, but never bitter for their happiness. I LOVED hearing about their lives and so thankful to be a part of their lives - I just wanted my story too.
I knew it was time for a change. I knew it would be difficult to make that change. It would mean giving up dreams, giving up a place where I have invested years of my life into others, and yes giving up seeing my friends and family on a weekly basis. But, I knew that the Lord was calling me away - I just had to stop stalling and do it. So, I put my big girl pants on and visited another church. I am so thankful for my friend, Karen. The Lord brought us into each others lives when we both needed it the most. She was mourning the loss of a friendship and I needed to step out and begin to live again.
I started attending GFBC, met a lot of new people, made a lot of friendships and began living again. Not only in my life, but in my walk with the Lord. I have said it on here many times it is so easy to become complacent in your walk with Christ. I have done that many many times. Put on a face for the church and at work and act like I have it all together. When in reality, I did not (and still fail miserably at it everyday).
I can honestly say, I am happier now than I have been in years. Everyday is something new. I feel like I have a new lease on life. I am not coming home and sitting in front of the tv every night, being sucked into a world of fantasy and living through fictional or reality lives. I am out LIVING my life - the life the Lord has called me to. When people ask me, "what's new with you", I can give them an answer, I can talk about it for hours. I can share about new friendships, relationships that I am building and most importantly what the Lord has done for me the past year. People have come to me and said - "you have a glow about you". Now, I do not know about that - but maybe I do. I will admit I am a social butterfly now and I am loving every minute of it! Yes, I have lost touch with some of the old relationships and that makes me sad, but maybe they were in my life for just that season and I do pray that we'll see each other more in the years ahead. And I have strengthened some relationships as well - maybe I needed to get moving in my life for me to realize how much they meant to me.
I have no clue why I just posted this - I had started this post to be about summer 2010 and fun photos - but it turned into this deep introspect of the year 2010. I'll post fun pics of summer 2010 next time. Maybe I just needed to confess or maybe someone reading this feels the same way I did and needs to make a change and live again. If that's the case - do it...it will hurt for a short time, but oh how sweet the rewards are when you are following hard after the life that Christ has set before us.
If I truly look back on the past few years of my life, I can say that I wasn't as happy as I let on. My life was not miserable at all, but it wasn't as fulfilling and happy as it could have been. I have always been an optimist, someone who sees the glass half full, who tries to see the best in people. Yes, I totally have my flaws - I do not have a lot of mercy, think I know everything and am a control freak (and those are just a few off the top of my head - there are many, many more). But, as I look back, I was just going through life like a zombie, it was all a routine to me. Go to work, come home, watch tv, go visit my family, hang with friends sometimes and go to church....and repeat...over and over again. I feel that life continued on and I stood still. I had become complacent in my life.
You see all of my friends had gotten married, were beginning to have families of their own and I was the single one left. Yes, they included me but I was still the odd wo-man out. Its wonderful hearing about their life, but I couldn't relate and didn't have a lot to contribute to the conversations because my life was on repeat - nothing was new with me. I cannot tell you how many times people asked, "what's new with you?" and all I could say was, "nothing - just work and church". Don't get me wrong, I was not bitter about their life, envious of it sometimes - yes, I will confess that, but never bitter for their happiness. I LOVED hearing about their lives and so thankful to be a part of their lives - I just wanted my story too.
I knew it was time for a change. I knew it would be difficult to make that change. It would mean giving up dreams, giving up a place where I have invested years of my life into others, and yes giving up seeing my friends and family on a weekly basis. But, I knew that the Lord was calling me away - I just had to stop stalling and do it. So, I put my big girl pants on and visited another church. I am so thankful for my friend, Karen. The Lord brought us into each others lives when we both needed it the most. She was mourning the loss of a friendship and I needed to step out and begin to live again.
I started attending GFBC, met a lot of new people, made a lot of friendships and began living again. Not only in my life, but in my walk with the Lord. I have said it on here many times it is so easy to become complacent in your walk with Christ. I have done that many many times. Put on a face for the church and at work and act like I have it all together. When in reality, I did not (and still fail miserably at it everyday).
I can honestly say, I am happier now than I have been in years. Everyday is something new. I feel like I have a new lease on life. I am not coming home and sitting in front of the tv every night, being sucked into a world of fantasy and living through fictional or reality lives. I am out LIVING my life - the life the Lord has called me to. When people ask me, "what's new with you", I can give them an answer, I can talk about it for hours. I can share about new friendships, relationships that I am building and most importantly what the Lord has done for me the past year. People have come to me and said - "you have a glow about you". Now, I do not know about that - but maybe I do. I will admit I am a social butterfly now and I am loving every minute of it! Yes, I have lost touch with some of the old relationships and that makes me sad, but maybe they were in my life for just that season and I do pray that we'll see each other more in the years ahead. And I have strengthened some relationships as well - maybe I needed to get moving in my life for me to realize how much they meant to me.
I have no clue why I just posted this - I had started this post to be about summer 2010 and fun photos - but it turned into this deep introspect of the year 2010. I'll post fun pics of summer 2010 next time. Maybe I just needed to confess or maybe someone reading this feels the same way I did and needs to make a change and live again. If that's the case - do it...it will hurt for a short time, but oh how sweet the rewards are when you are following hard after the life that Christ has set before us.
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